I don't feel I'm truly brave enough to compete in professional MMA. It's not that I'm afraid of dying. It's not that I'm afraid of serious injury, either, because if it's bad enough I'll just commit suicide. My real fear is suffering injuries that leave me alive but physically unable to kill myself. I think that's what Ken Shamrock meant when he said he was going to beat Tito Ortiz into the living death. If you think about it that's the ultimate trash talk.